I got my second MRI

 My Neurologist wants to do 3 vertebrae in my neck in 4 weeks. Anterior cervical discectomy and fusion for you nerds. I will be out for a minimum of six weeks. Before that I have to have a chest x-ray and an EKG while also submitting to my 9-5 that I will be out for a minimum of six weeks.

Currently doing what I can content wise so hopefully I won't lose that. However, I will have a pretty gnarly scar on my throat/neck which may be "modeling" is no longer in the cards (😅 much like most of 2023-present has been). Due to being away from it and the current economic climate being what it is I'm not really sad about it. 

Of course I'll still be doing content, however I don't know where my balloon and beach ball content will fall over the next few months. Im going to try to film with my complete stock currently in my possession but after that who knows what my body will be up for.  Yes, sure we are hoping for the best however we are planning for the worst (in my universe "worse" is not death. My worst fear has always been what I could live through) Hopefully I'll be back to my 2019 self. 20lbs lighter, no nerve pain and still full of life 😋

My last day for filming will be December 13th so of the is anything you want to see it needs to be in 24hrs prior to the 13th.

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Tired & Frustrated

 The last two weeks have been really hard for me. Not only did I lose my 3 Instagram accounts, but they IP blocked me from making a new one. I have also completed four therapy sessions,s two of which were utterly useless. They created barely a ripple in my pain management, mobility, and inflammation. The other two through me into such a deep flare that I literally hit new levels of pain. 

Neck Update

Not a whole lot has been accomplished... 

Neurosurgery

I go in for my first surgical consultation tomorrow. Not my first rodeo but I'm still a bit nervous. In case you weren't following the story on Twitter & TikTok, here's your catch-up.

Manic Depression

 Does anyone else ever feel like they're drowning but like... you're fully clothed sitting on a stool at your normal job and not drowning but that's not how it feels.